life after life

I dun feel like chatting with my friends in Facebook , I feel so useless and priceless . 

With all the comments they gave me for many years .  :C

I born with a dark skin , and a very black hair . Like i use to like it , when i small . 

But when im 7 years old , everyone start gossiping around .  And you know wad they're gossip about ? 

My skin , they all speak with me in Malay lang , and i answer them in chinese and you know wad 

they say ??  omg , you chinese aa ?? I tot you are malay cause you very black leh . 

And why you so black one ????  You everytime stay under the sun ?? Or you born this way ?? 

Your father izzit Malay ??   And why your mum like chinese de ? 

And you know wad my aunt ask ??  " you go out but food or anything , the people speak wad lang with 

you ? " Izzit malay ?? Cause your skin so black , sure they speak with you in malay right ?? 

And i remember my friend's aunt , say i very ugly cause my skin very black . 

Say my friend very pretty and say my friend play with a malay girl . 

Now , still got but i'll say " AUNT , this is my skin , and who knows how i got this skin .Even my mum

dun know . " And things can change , my skin wont remain like this , and everyone not prefect . 

plus , i dun care how i look in the mirror , how my skin look , dark or fair . 

 Cause god give this to me , and im the child of the god , i have to appreciate wad god gave me . 

And like i use to know , my friends or school's friends love a friends with a fair skin and pretty face , 

nice and smooth hair  . But i dun have so they look down on me and say i very dark .  

I use to get use to it , but sometimes i get angry cause maybe my mood is bad . 

That is last time , but now i'll just say wad i wanna say and clean my mind with all the 

stupid regrets they make it for me .    

Sometimes , i feel teachers are alsi like this ,   love pretty , nice and fair students . 

But not me  . People love to hurts ppl's feeling everywhere . 

Friends , sometime i feel and saw people love to be friends with pretty girls and handsome boys .  

Or smart boys and girls , even rich boys and girls .  I they like this . 

Even COOL boys and girls .   Try to think other side of it , do you think they will be hurts because 

you just friend them cause they are COOL OR RICH OR PRETTY ??  

And this is consider as TAKING FRIENDS FOR GRANTED , you know ? 

I got a dark skin so that's why , motherfuckers , dun like me . 

And those motherfuckers love to take friends for granted .   Like my school , 

love girls are pretty and fair .   Like ones of the motherfucker , i know . 

She say , you see she so pretty , PRETTY then you leh ! You ugly . 

Duh , i dun wanna say out her name but if the person read my blog , 

please dun get angry , cause i just try to express my feelings out . 

Not talking about your gossip .    :D    CHILL ok ?   c:

Anyway , my school friends are already show me love and caring , full of support and laughter . 

I love them , like my love ones ,  :d 

And there is no BBF in this world , you know why ?  Cause you treat your friends like your BBF , 

they will only kick off your ASS . But if you treat your friends like a friends . A normal friends . 

They will really treat you very well , like you use to like it ,  :D 

I feel that way everytime , i dun know why but i will feel like this if anyone crying because of 

friends problem .  haha , no idea .     :x

Be happy , love and always .    :D 

THE END